I feel sick everyday. Like, the moment I wake up, I just feel terrified. I have nothing to do, and it horrifies me, makes me ill; and it really makes me hate myself.
I’m hoping thailand does something for me, but at the same time I’m just full of fear that I’ll just feel it even more so over there being so disconnected with the culture clash. But, I bet by the end of my time there, ill just start being scared about coming back here and being in this room with myself.
I keep telling myself these emotions are natural, and that it’s just the dysphoria in my ear.